So guys it’s time for me to be honest with you……I’m tired

Like really tired, as in I took self portrait for you (because you can’t have a post without an image to go with it) and then proceeded to sleep for 12 hours straight kind of tired. That’s right I know how to party on a Friday night like nobodies business. In full disclosure I took 34 pictures before I was ok with an image to use, evidently lining up a shot when your not looking through the camera while in that state of mind is super challenging).

You know what is worse than that though? I can’t really share my job….also known as the reason I’m so tired…with you guys here because of the media policy part of my contract. And seeing as I spend about 95% of my time either at school or doing work at home it helps to explain the huge amount of silence you guys have been seeing since September hit.

I will however say this, starting tomorrow I will be getting more support in my class (I’ll be up to 4 TA’s rather than just 3….That’s for 8 kids in the class guys) and I am so happy I could cry. Seriously I would not be able to function in my class without the TA’s I love them so much, they are my extra hands and their feedback/input into lessons is invaluable. Sheryl mad props to you for doing that job in a system that seems intent on pretending that including some of these kids into a mainstream school and class is better for them than being in a place that can actually address all of their sensory needs, tailor how their day is set up so that they can function at their best, and socialize them with peers that are at their level, I can’t even imagine.

I’ve just gone on to write and erase about three really amazing posts about what’s going on in my head right now around this whole thing but I can’t. I wish I could share more about this huge part of my life with you guys (obviously completely respecting my kids privacy through it all) but I can’t.

At the end of the day I’m feeling very grateful and really hoping that this will be a tipping point for my kids and we can buckle down and get to some learning. I do love my job but it is a tough one and it take all of my energy all day every day I’m with the kids because you can’t be off your game for a second with them.
Here is hoping I can figure out a work life balance that doesn’t make me feel like I’m completely failing them as well and will let me still function when friday comes around.

I’ll do a mixed bag post this weekend with some random things that have been going on lately. I hope you’re all well, sorry that this is a more wordy post though to be honest there may be some more opiniony type posts in and amongst the ‘hey look at what I’m doing now’ posts…..you know to help me from feeling like a complete narcissist.

I hope you’re all doing well. I’ll talk to you soon!